In the beginning, this terribleness is what I felt - deeply sad and tortured by what I had created as a reality. The exclamation of my feelings to the universe, however, brought the awareness required, at that time, for me to create change in order to remain here. And, having been to the edge of leaving this planet more than once, I can assure you of some positive first steps to take in order to heal your perspective and body. Any place you begin from is perfect and the positive changes you seek involve shifting your lifestyle and diet.
The first place to work on, within your lifestyle, involves your mind. That's right - get into your own head. What are you thinking? Do you wake up every morning dreading the day or do you cherish the fact that you have a bed, food to eat, running water and a place to live? If not, you can shift that perspective now. It is paramount that the pace is set for attracting what you require during your healing journey and provide fodder for your new, healthy self to achieve great and even greater heights. A positive attitude is a major key to long-term success! You can decide to wake up in a place of gratitude. An example would be: "I am so happy I have this clean, warm blanket (and feel the warmth on your body), that I have a pillow under my head (feel how good it is to have it there) and that I am having a wonderful day, right now (then envision yourself with a smile on your face at work, shopping, or whatever it is that you choose to do)!" Allow yourself the luxury of reveling in your waking joyfulness.
While at work, especially, when the idea hits that you are bored or unhappy dip into the appreciation of everything around you and choose to move through your day within the present moment by shifting the tendencies toward negativity. Allow the present to be filled with wonder as you enjoy the colors and shapes that fill your world. Use reminders - some of us use a stone, designate a ring, wear a particular bracelet, use sticky notes or any of a number of other little things to help. Do what it takes, in positive ways, to remain in the highest place within your thinking as you possibly can. If you are consistent, you will see short and long-term changes in your life.
Along with your shift in thoughts and feelings about your world, make sure to include how you think about the fuel that your body is supplied with. What do you eat everyday? Is most of your food processed, filled with sugars, now-rancid hydrogenated oils and various chemicals such as pesticides, herbicides, fungicides, antibiotics, dyes and so on? If so, it is time to rethink your approach in order to regain an optimum level of health. Whole organic foods (do your best) and whole food supplements are best. Why? Food in it's whole and natural state is fully recognizable by the body as a source of energy - it has all of it's vitamins, minerals, fats, enzymes and cofactors that make it usable. Science cannot emulate all that makes up a portion of nature, no matter how the attempts have been made. And, when only a portion of a complex is used, problems arise. For instance, when one uses Ascorbic acid (as it seems most of us have at one point or another) that is only a part of vitamin C. In order to make Ascorbic acid usable, your body will take the rest of vitamin c from it's own stores to piece it together. Soon, the whole of vitamin C can become depleted in your body, as a result. It is like dissecting a frog (most of us have done this in school) and then expecting it to jump around again. All the parts and pieces are there and in tact but the frog is clearly dead. Dead pieces of vitamins do not work either. And should the fractionated vitamin continue to be taken the very issue that was within the body in the first place can show up in a worse way and new issues created. Living, whole foods are the best choice for great health.
At the end of the day it is you who decides what your life will be. You do not have to get to the desperately deep place of sorrow I experienced, for instance, in order to shift and love living life - either again or for the first time! Choosing to create a healthy and happy lifestyle full of love, joy, good health and longevity is there for you. Animating your life by choosing those living foods that your body can use to rebuild itself, every step of the way, is there for you.
If there is change required in your life, then only you will make it a reality. You are worth every bit of effort it takes to give yourself the best treatment possible.
Be your happy, healthy, gifted self and happy creating!
* The Real Truth About Vitamins & Anti-oxidants by Judith Decava, CNC, LNC, second edition